Eeeeerieeee....

Call me morbid.

My heart has been bothering me for quite some time now. Once in a while I feel like it missed a beat and had to make up for it. For a few days now I have had very brief moments of sharp but small chest pain. My vertigo has been returning and I get dizzy when I turn around. Just now my heart was acting up (it was fluttery, but not really...)

Do I tell my mom? Or not? It could be nothing.

I'm not the least bit scared. I know how important my heart is, but I don't find myself at all worried. It bothers me, but not because I'm worried about what happens next. It's all very thanatos, you see. 

Anyway, aside from that, I updated my profile on my actual Blogger page and also on the new and rather pretty spidersoncaffeine blog page. I'm so sad because I still don't know anything about coding :( I had in mind a very pretty layout but it seems like I'll never get to put it up. (D'awww....)

In other news, THE DEBATE COMPETITION IS OVER! I feel relieved and at the same time dissatisfied. At the closing ceremony I got to see how happy it made these other students when they received their trophies and certificates. There was a sense that I had accomplished something significant, and I loved making them so happy. The more selfish and proud side of me says I didn't do very well at all in the entire event and wants to blame other parties for how badly it went. But as you know writing things down gives you a sense of objectivity, so I know which voice to listen to. :) Our principal came up to me at the end of the day and thanked me for what I'd done. It made me so happy :3 I hope next year's will be even better!

A lot is happening this weekend, it seems. Tomorrow morning I have to wake up early and go practice for Sunday's service as I am going to be the worship leader. The topic on that day is "Christian Leaders". Basically, we're exploring the characteristics of a Christian Leader. I was initially very excited because I wanted to share what I could from my presidential (insert march music here :D) position in the school. And then I thought about it more and more, and it became so intimidating.

I realized that I'm not trying to get them to think I am the good Christian leader, but rather I am inviting them to learn together with me what it means to be a Christian leader. In the end I constructed the whole service based around the idea that whatever traits need to be present in a Christian leader can be found in people only because God has helped them. The focus is on the Lord! :3

Wish me luck. I'm too sleepy to add more.

Oh! I got K a pink (what else?) purse to give to her tomorrow. I hope she likes it. :)

Ahahaha! I can't believe I forgot. One more thing.

This morning we all woke up early because we had to get our Schengen Visa from the Italian Embassy. It was so cool because my dad was friends with an Italian person who had connections, so that the Vice Consul himself came to meet us. Of course it's still the same procedure and everything. :) As far as I know, that's not corruption, but I might be wrong? Anyhow, we are getting our visa in ten days' time.

After the Italian Embassy we went over to the Four Seasons for lunch <3>___<

I loved the baked portobello mushrooms (my appetizer). My only complaint is that the cheese they put on it tasted a bit strong. Then again my preference is for a more subtle, deeper flavor as opposed to very strong ones. The steak was also very good. :) Papa ordered an extra small sidedish of (more) baked mushrooms, which were different but even better. I had been looking forward to my dessert, but it wasn't anything too special. *sigh*

One thing that came out of lunch at the Four Seasons was the baguette we brought home. I'd had baguettes before but we weren't used to buying any. Unfortunately I waited too long, so by the time I decided to cut it earlier tonight it was beginning to get soggy and the crust was no longer crunchy. (D'aww...) It makes me want real French freshly baked baguettes!

Aduh, my tummy is making sounds.

I'm going away now to print lyrics and chords for tomorrow's practice. And then it's off to sleep :3 Goodnight~